Sunday, December 18, 2011

my thoughts....

Who knew life could be so complicated?  I have faith that the darkest times are when our souls  have the most opportunities to grow.  I do believe that  pain and struggles lead us to peace and enlightenment.  Logically, I know these facts to be true,  but it is so hard when things feel off.  It's like time slows down, and the pain is felt longer...why must it hurt so much to grow?  Why is it so hard to hold on to the hope, when it is dark?  How is it that the darkness can make everything feel so unfamiliar?  How is it that the most simple, human need...to feel loved, can be such a difficult thing to attain?

These are some of my thoughts for today, as I try to make sense of my current situation.  These are some of my questions, as I try to hold on to faith and hope.


  1. HI Kelly,
    One breath at a time, one step at a time.

    A lovely friend gave me a small palque when I was in a deep black despair.

    Happiness is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your mind to other things,it comes softly and sits on your shoulder.

    You know what Kelly. It took a long time but little snippets and snatches of happy did appear in my life. Now it is pretty good. I won't say I don't still get extremely anxious, I do but I am not consumed by the feelings any more.

    I hope you my friend feel the quiet whisper of your own personal butterfly and that it gentles your spirit and nurtures your soul.

  2. Hang in there Kelly, im so in tune with what u are saying and hope 2012 will be a better year for us all, i have u on my google reader so i feel i know u , keep posting what u feel u need to ... wow great words from Julie and i so have been saying to myself " one day at a time" sending u big hugz


  3. What true words Julie speaks above:O) Sending hugs and love and happiness to you:O)

  4. hi kelly, i too have been living in the dark, so much so that i cut myself off from blogland for almost five months, so i am not knowing what you are going through right now. but for me, the light is coming back and things are starting to make sense again.

    yes, it has been painful, but i think for me the growth in my art and in my soul have been worth it. i hope this also happens for you, sweet kelly.

    2012 has to be a better year, i'm counting on it! smooches, and hugs, and love to you while you get through this difficult time.

  5. The darkness has filled my world since the death of my dear husband July 14th,2010. I have had moments of light and joy, but these past 2 months I have lived in such darkness and despair I was ready to give up. But... this last week has been full of blessings. Blessings from the most unexpected places. Today I am doing the Happy Feet Dance that my granddaughter, Trinity does ! Hang in their my friend... light will shine and you will fly sweet girl !! BIG HUGS.... Kristy... Angel says Wappy Kwismas to Cooper !!!

  6. Hi Kelly, i don't know you personally but i can tell you are struggling to come to terms with something. We all have our dark times, after i had my son almost six years ago i had PND, it lasted around 2.5years and i thought, this is my life now, how can i bring up a child if i can't do day to day tasks but eventually i found the light at the end of my tunnel. This year threw another ball at me, one of my worst knightmares, i had always said if this happens this is how i will address it and such is life, completely the opposite and here i am 8mths later and things are getting easier, it's not easy at the time but somehow from somewhere we find the strenght to muddle through. Wishing you strength and peace x