This is how I currently see myself....I hope I do another self portrait soon....
Thursday, September 16, 2010
growing up....
Why is it that I always feel like the youngest one in the room? And I'm not talking about looks here people. I'm talking about ??????? I'm not quite sure really. Is it confidence? Is it experience? Is it education? or lack of? Is it innocence or naivety? Possibly...or is that just me romancing the idea of inadequecy (sp?) (I couldn't even look this word up correctly in the dictionary) (OMG) That makes me think it must me the latter! But noooooooooooooo.....I don't want that to be the answer! I want to be as capable as everyone else, and common sense tells me I am, and so does my instinct....but still I question myself always. Will I ever feel like a "real" grown up? Do I even want to? I don't know...what I do know is that I want to feel strong and confident. I know I CAN! I CAN! I CAN! I CAN! I BELIEVE IN MYSELF, at least I beleive in my creative self. I LOVE MY CREATIVE SELF. She is the best! But I don't want to refer to her as "SHE" anymore-thats ME! When will I give myself the credit I deserve? SOON!
This is how I currently see myself....I hope I do another self portrait soon....
This is how I currently see myself....I hope I do another self portrait soon....
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I love your creative self too!!:O) And i have percieved you as always strong and confident:O) And do we ever really want to grow up or feel grown? No, not me Im going to be 44 and I know i dont act grown but that does not mean that i am inmature either,im just enjoying my journey and being quirky too:O) Look forward to your next self portrait:O) Isabel
ReplyDeleteKell, WOw That is how I am!! I don't see you as that! I think your strong and confident and mature!!!I love you!!!
ReplyDeleteYour sis, KIM
Wow Kelly, this piece is so wonderful! Love it! And I think none of us should ever grow up! :)
ReplyDeleteI thought about this quite a lot today, I am 65 and still have those feelings sometimes, and I think they are normal, The reason I say this is some of the basic things that go on in our heads and in our being doesn't really change. I still like to laugh and be silly sometimes and a lot of the emotions are the same as they were developed a long time ago,
ReplyDeleteso inside we still have those feelings,, yet I am responsible, caring, and adult. I don't care as deeply about some topics as I do others, and think I must be immature, how can that be I am 65. Committee meetings make me feel that way. I don't do committees much.