This morning I chatted with a beautiful soul who lost her husband 22 months ago. She is a widow. I was telling her how hard these last 6 months have been for me, going through separation and divorce. She didnt discount my pain, she told me I was grieving, just like she was. She said " divorce is a death of a life you knew and dreamed about..." She is grieving the death of her beloved husband, and I am grieving the loss of all I once knew to be comfort. It's true that this is a grieving process. It hurts so deeply and I have shed so many tears, but they don't seem to run out. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling sad inside. I am going through the motions of moving forward...I am doing things that should be fun and joyful, but still inside there is so much sadness. I do have faith that happiness will return one day, I just wish that was enough for right now. Maybe soon the tears will run dry and make room for joy. I hope this day is soon. I will keep taking steps forward and I will keep holding onto that faith. I will try to grow and learn and become more and more independent. I will keep trying to accept that this is a process I must go through and that there is the brightest light at the end of this tunnel.
Thank you Coleen, for your words. They mean so much to me.
