Never okay....

There are moments that may happen in our lives that will be out of our control.  These moments may be so painful that we wish we could erase them from our memories...but we cant.  Life is not a fairy tale.  All people are not good.

So the question is this:  How do we stay good and loving and caring in this harsh world?  How do we not turn bitter and untrusting and cold?  How do we learn from the pain and go on?  This is what I am asking myself this morning.

 I'm not the type to be a "victim" and I'm not the type to brush anything under the rug.  So that leaves me with "IT".  I'm trying to find the lesson in my pain.  I'm trying to not let all my tears fall in vain.  I know it will take time, like all big lessons do.

Sometimes....

Sometimes words are everything and sometimes they are nothing.  Sometimes its best to stay silent and just be patient.  God knows what is going on even when we dont.  Keeping the faith that he is in charge and that everything will be okay, that is the challenge for me.  Being alone and not knowing what the future holds is a difficult position to be in... its not a choice.  When things are not right I can feel it in my heart.  I cannot pretend, I can only be open to what I feel...even when nothing makes sense.  That is the hardest part for me; when I feel the pain of loss and of loneliness.  I want so badly to do the easiest thing, but I know that would only make things feel better temporarily.  There would be no healing, no changes, no security, no peace.